"Rock Me Mamma"

"Headed down south to the land of the pines
And I'm thumbin' my way into North Caroline
Starin' up the road
Pray to God I see headlights..."

A little over a week ago Audrina and I had our stuff loaded down in the KIA ready to head to North Carolina. There she was barely a month old in her carseat sound asleep. With "Wagon Wheel"  playing through the speakers of the car I was ready for this long drive with my princess. The day we left Gia (my mom) had spent the day crying at the thought of Audrina and I leaving back to North Carolina. See after I had Audrina and Jose' left Audrina and I stayed at my parents house so that I could have their help and also so that they could spend time with her before we had to leave. Within a blink of an eye Audrina was a month old and the "OK" was given to go to NC leaving Gia and G-pa more than sad to see her go. They had enjoyed every second of having her around and watching her grow and change each and every day. With a months time she had managed to go from 6.5 lbs to 8.9 lbs and grow almost 2 inches.

 My little girl is growing fast.  

The normal 8 hour drive to North Carolina ended up taking almost 12 hours...needless to say it was an adventure...Finally at almost 2 in the morning Audrina and I pulled up in the driveway of our second home...and there was Daddy anxiously waiting to see his baby girl. It didn't take long for him to notice that she wasn't the same newborn he left two weeks ago. She had already changed so much and now he was excited to finally be with her.

Over the weekend we got everything settled in and it was back to the grind of not only being an Army wife but a mommy too...

One Month Old

Before Daddy left

Back with Daddy

 A Mommy Thought::

Throughout your life one experiences many moments that make a significant imapact on your life...but every now and then one can have a moment that becomes life changing...

For me, it wasn't when I got married at the young age of 19. In fact very little changed...my last name, where I lived, and some bank account information were probably some of the main things that changed after I got married along with having the perks of a mortgage and an endless pile of bills that come every month. But Jose' and I were and still are crazy about each other just as before we were married...if anything our love has just grown...

My life changing moment happend on July 13, 2011 at 11:25 a.m. when a little girl weighing in at 6.5 and 19 1/4 inches long came into my life. The very moment Audrina was born my life had forever changed...

There was this little girl whose whole life depended on me. She depends on me for love, nurturing, care, protection, and the list goes on and on. I have never felt a love so strong before...I have heard my parents and others talk about it but it is one of those things that you just have to experience to fully understand...

There I was a mother to my very own child...I would have to say that since that moment my whole perspective on how I do things has changed. Everything I do now has a direct impact on this innocent creation God blessed me with...so I can only hope and pray that with each decision I make...I make in the best interest of Audrina...

There are many things in life that can change and end: marriages,friendships, relationships, jobs, and so forth but one thing that can never change nor end is my title as being a mommy.

Having Audrina was my life changing moment, now I strive to be the best mommy I can be in every sense...I strive to be the best person I can be, the best wife I can be, the best friend I can be...because I now set an example for her...and as her mommy I only want the best for her.

...Feeling Gypsy Like...

I sit here next to my baby girl watching her sleep peacefully remembering how a few weeks ago I too could sleep peacefully. One day away from her being four weeks old and four days away from her being a month old, I feel like time has already flown by. I feel like it was just yesterday that Jose' was taking me to the hospital and our family and close friends were anxiously awaiting with us on Audrina to make her big debut. Now, my little Audrina is already going to be a month old. Along with her being a month old comes many new adventures.

 Jose' had to go back to North Carolina back in July only 10 days after she was born and we felt like it would be best if we waited on taking Audrina back until she was at least a month old. So, we have been staying at Gia and G-Pas house...(My parents) Well, in the blink of an eye that time has come. Going back and forth from Tennessee to North Carolina did not seem so bad when it was just me BUT NOW it is Audrina and I. These Bustamante girls are going back to North Carolina. Do we want to leave TN where our family is?? OF COURSE NOT!! But our other half is waiting on us. Jose' has already noticed how much she has changed in just two weeks since he has left so I know he is super excited about being able to be with her and watch her continue to grow and change each day. Although, I am a proud Army wife I cannot wait until we can live a civilian life. With a house in Nashville that sits with empty rooms and our place in North Carolina that just doesn't feel quite like home I cannot help but to feel like a gypsy going back and forth all the time.  



Audrina and Jose' sleeping the night before Jose' had to leave

A Mommy Thought:: I have never felt so important as I do now. I have this little girl whose whole life right now depends on me...it's quite a feeling how I can pick her up when she is crying and she stops and stares back at me with her big dark eyes...as if she is saying "mommy i love you."